A very nice beginning to Fall weather

Sitting on the porch facing the western sky and it is barely after 8am so the heat hasn't got here yet, just a breeze that feels like a quality air conditioner must be behind it. Life has calmed down a little and for that I'm ever so thankful. Personally I don't see the calm periods as brief reprieves between dramatic trauma, in my view of life the dramatic trauma are like forest fires...being on fire is not the "norm" for a forest and once it is put out, often the benefits to the forest are great, depending on how devastating the fire is.

My day to day life I orient myself to the peacefulness captured in my mind from childhood when so many many days were spent deep in a forest lying on my back near the top of a ridge just hearing the awesomeness of wind gently moving through the tops of very tall trees.

Home life is back to normal, once M80 discontinued the new medicine, the rage that had suddenly appeared and grew to a horrible outcome...almost immediately started dissipating and the peace and happiness is a tremendous relief. It is amazing to me what medications...or in this case an interaction between two medications, can do to a person, a family.

I've dealt with quite a few families that had violent eruptions caused by a variety of predictable ingredients like alcohol, methamphetamine, steroids...but as this experience has taught me...even well meaning physicians can whip out their RX pads and drastically change a person's life.

Thought my VA disability case was going to finally get started, the government sent me the requested paper work...but the only medical history they sent was from my enlistment physical. Amongst the other papers there was a page where they had checked off that before my discharge a complete physical was mandatory...though they never sent me for that physical or even told me about it. The VA rep said that should help my case since by not following through with that there is no ground for the government to claim "he was fine when he left here". With the clearance I had much of my records seem to be "elsewhere"...but the rep believes he will be able to get to it or he will get the state rep involved. Meanwhile he sent off a request for some very specific records and in a month or so they will either send him back the same thing they sent me...or hopefully...the records we need.

It has been a little over a year since I quit driving and yet my remaining hearing is still fading steadily away. While the locusts have grown louder !! (tinnitus) But mentally I've been progressing at interpreting that loud ringing as a "peaceful" and "natural" sound so it isn't as annoying as it use to be.

Hearing aids, now that is what is annoying. Makes my ears hurt to hear all that noise and for the minimal increase in speech distinction, they generally are not worth the literal pain. This set is either my 3rd or 4th set and I would say my last but a guy at the campground a few weeks ago had a set that he said really really made all the difference in the world...though his were close to $4000 and mine were around $1700 at a fraction above wholesale. The ear doctor was probably right though, he said with my type hearing loss there was a good chance hearing aids would not be of any benefit. Guess I'm still cheering for the last horse to pull into the lead on the last lap.

It is only in the mid 60's this morning so far so it is time to get hopping on my to do list. And for those of you who have my phone number I do have my old number back.
Speaking of which a bill collector just called me on it, seems I put an extra number into my bank account number when I paid my bill a week ago online and it through them off..LOL.